Dear Blog,

I miss you. Why don't we hang out more often? I really enjoy writing in this little grey-rimmed box, and looking back, I've used some descriptions that I'm really quite proud of here. I mean, come on. I called my printer an alien spaceship with which I had to have a nuclear battle. And I used the phrase "begrudging snobs". How many times in life will you hear that phrase?

Sure, all of my stupid typos are out here for all to see (ironically I just misspelled the word stupid twice), but I refuse to go back and fix them. The flaws make this more real, more human. I don't want to seem like a professional here. I'm not an author, and I don't want to be. Not anymore, at least. NaNoWriMo ruined that for me. I want to write for fun, not because I have to. That's why I started this blog in the first place, rather than taking a Creative Writing class at school. Sure, I could ace it. But I'd be REQUIRED to share what I wrote. And I'd have deadlines. And I couldn't start sentences with the word 'and'. Here on this lovely little blog, people can see what I write, but barely anyone does. I like my small audience. I wish I had more feedback, but still. Small is good. And I don't get stage-fright here, because I'm not anticipating having to read my essay to the class. There are no grades, no deadlines, and no length requirements. Ironically, that makes me write more.

Oh, so you're saying it's my fault we haven't chilled much lately? Well.....I guess that's true. I mean, I have been struggling not to fail AP Physics, as well as going to both District and Regional competitions for theater. And there's something I'm forgetting.......oh yeah. I auditioned for All-State Band. That's right. Get on my level :P I'll be writing about that soon; it was quite an experience.

Anyway blog, I've missed you a lot. I just wanted to tell you that. Mainly because I felt like writing tonight but I'm literally too lazy to get up and go and get my journal. Also, my wrist hurts from over-practicing for states. I know I've posted recently, but I wrote those things because I had to. The percussionist essay was originally written for AP English, and although I am immensely proud of it I wish I had done it by my own free will. I feel like I had to try really hard to write that essay, as opposed to right now, when I'm literally just sitting here with my laptop and a can of Pepsi, listening to Repo! The Genetic Opera and typing whatever comes to mind. And as far as the virtually nonexistent post goes.....I wrote that on a night when I was so stressed I actually could not concentrate on practicing anymore. I needed a distraction from my nervousness and anger at myself, and I felt like I owed the internet an apology anyway. I mean, I ditched it all at once. Seven different websites in one night. I bet it was heartbroken (ok not really).

I'm really going to try and come back to you, blog. I promise we'll have a special Bro Night sometime soon. Now that you are my primary interweb attraction, you will get all the attention. In the next month, I promise to write more real things and (hopefully) they will be more interesting than this is.